Taken by me
If you were to ask me about ‘change’ when I was younger, I would have scrunched my nose up and made an impressive disgruntled face about the concept. To me, it meant taking away something familiar, something comfortable that I could handle. Does that mean that I love change now? Yes and no.
I’m aware that to keep things the same means you’ll never grow or expand your horizons. Instead, one becomes complacent. With that in mind, I’ve come to terms that change can be good and bad – one needs to be on their toes and ready for whatever comes their way.
The picture at the top of this post is from my favorite San Diego Thai restaurant – as of three weeks ago, I will not be able to dine here again like a local resident. After 17 years, my folks have left sunny SoCal for the East Coast, due to work and future retirement plans. While I had lived close to work for almost 5 years now, it feels different telling friends that if I come it will be a short weekend visit or that I may not see them until San Diego Comic Con next summer.
Do I miss the house I’ve grown up in? Oddly it never felt like home – yes I was able to make my room look the way I wanted and I was fortunate to have the ability to create my own Japanese rock garden outside my window. But the neighborhood I lived in was isolated: houses were spaced out very far, neighbors often didn’t celebrate holidays with visual decorations, and it was rare anyone did get-togethers with fellow neighbors. I do hold memories of many pool parties with friends, a few sleepovers, and baking holiday cookies with my parents. (Cue a family assembly line of Mom making frosting and me and Dad decorating the cookies before stacking them to dry on the counter tops.)
If you were to ask me “What’s your hometown?” I will reply with “San Diego” because I’ve spent most of my youth growing up there and making memories. Some of my classmates used to joke about our small town in San Diego, saying that it was sleepy and if you craved adventure and excitement, you were better off moving as far away from our town as possible. I was always split between the comfort and serenity of my small suburban town I was raised in and the energy of the bigger cities further away. There had been a point where I wondered if I would take a job closer to home once I graduated but life is very unpredictable and sometimes you have to roll with the punches.
Lots of changes happening at once but I’m keeping my head up and looking ahead as best as I can. It’s all one can do in times like this.